Long time no blog.. 3 years… I guess I have some explaining to do.
I am not naturally enamored with social media. The idea putting myself ‘out there’ is not something that appeals to me- and honestly, it terrifies me. I’m an introvert, and I really don’t think that I have anything to say that matters outside my small circle. I feel this constant push-and-pull conflict with social media. I need to use it in order to stay up to date and keep in contact with people, but on the other hand I think many users develop this idea they are more powerful or influential.. (maybe they are the center of the universe?) than they really are, and so self-promotion and putting myself out there just seems weird to me.
I did like this blog because it was a nice way to journal what I was wearing and life events… if you know me in real life (and have gathered from here and IG) I had a rough few years following my PTSD diagnosis after my time in the service. In the last 10 months, I have been able learning to use my voice to help others that are going through a similar process of reintegrating into civilian society and as hard as it is to open myself up like that, I have found it has been helpful in my healing process and other’s.
I think I also put a lot of pressure on myself to appear a certain way to the outside world and it felt so inauthentic to do so. Over the last few years, I’ve been really evaluating how that has negatively affected me, and trying to strike the right balance between being truthful about how I feel and also not becoming a negative Nancy. Thanks to some wonderful individuals at the VA and close friends, I think I’ve found that sweet spot and have found a place where I feel content with how I feel and what I show to the world.
I’m still wearing vintage, and it is still one of my biggest loves. I don’t live in Baltimore anymore, but am retaining the name because.. well… alliteration is awesome:) I relocated to Tucson, AZ a year ago to pursue a dream I had when I was 8 (yeah, weird kid) to study under Noam Chomsky and get a PhD in linguistics. Which, I am very happy to report, I am doing:) I’m doing my focus in Neurolinguistics, researching how the brain processes diacritic marks in Semitic languages and how that can help us to understand language processes in those with TBI, CTE or aphasia/other language disorders from strokes.
I’ll be back to post a bit more frequently, because honestly, I have missed it. Til then, I’ll be staying inside out of the 105F heat and doing some much needed studying!